The struggles of a wanna-be blogger (season 1, episode 2): All the doubts

There are many successful stories related to blogs online. You read them and think to yourself: “If other people can live a good life mostly from blogging, why couldn’t you do the same?”. But then you analyze the numbers a bit closer and realize that around 80% of bloggers never manage to get even $100 (at least that’s what these guys say – see number 25).

Reading about this, your confidence fades a bit. You start counting all the different reasons why you might not be able to transform a blog into a job (you’re not a marketer, you’re not good with social media, you don’t know much about how blogging works, you don’t know CSS, all you know about SEO is that it stand for search engine optimization, you suck at designing websites, you’re not a journalist, both your English and your Romanian suck, you’re in a country where internet is often slow etc etc.).

Some of your friends are concerned about you. They think that transforming a blog into a job is a far-fetched crazy idea, they advise you to be realistic and prepare for failure, maybe already start applying for a real job back in Europe.

But some other friends are enthusiastic about what you’re doing, they always check what you write, they send you feedback, they share your posts with their other friends, some even like your posts in Romanian, although they don’t speak the language, they comment on your posts every now and then and my sister works for free as my part-time editor for my posts in Romanian.

Picture from Kathy all the way from Grenada

And guess what else happened recently also thanks to friends? I just became a published author! Kanti, a good old friend, study buddy during the time we were both doing our master’s courses in econometrics at Uni of Nottingham, just made my day with his tweet on Sunday:


I really didn’t expect it. I got super enthusiastic about it, I even sent the picture to my sister. She also met Kanti when she came to visit me. He actually printed out parts of my blog to give to his friends! Unlike Neil Armstrong, I thought: “That’s one insignificantly unnoticeable small step for mankind, one giant leap for myself.” Thank you soooo much, Kanti!

How I’ve transformed over night into a published author! 😀

Even when I get good feedback for my work, the doubts are still there, though, creeping every now and then from the back of my mind. Realistically, I know that chances are high for things not to work out the way I’m hoping. I’m an analytical person, I’m aware of my own limitations and I lack confidence in pretty much everything that I do (I’m sometimes good at faking it, though). The only thing is…I’m just stupidly stubborn and prone to want to do things other people tell me are bad ideas or impossible to do. It’s not because I’m confident that I can do it. On the contrary, I’m not. It’s simply because I want to know for sure. I might be pretty much “planless” at the moment, but the truth is I don’t like uncertainty much and I’m usually a control freak deep down. So I just want to know for sure what I can and can’t do.

But yeah, no matter what one’s job is, being prepared for failure is always a good idea. After all, there’s always a probability for any sort of business to go bankrupt. And if it all fails, at least you know for sure it’s not for you, you can then move on and continue your search, try something else, start over. Kind of like dating, I guess (since it’s the day of the Valentine dude, I might as well mention something). Although that’s another domain I don’t know much about.

Meanwhile, keep going.


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